Thursday, December 18, 2008

Recurring Dreams

/hihi


Yes, dreams. Do you always have recurring dreams that seems to bother you in the middle of the night? Doesn't it feel a little weird when you have recurring dreams? Like they have something to tell that you just don't quite get it yet.

Well. I have. Let's go through this one by one, okay?

First, I'll share this bit of information I got by surfing through the net about dreams.

When you dream, your body is very active, even though you are not sleeping. Your blood circulation flows faster and the rate of your heartbeat increase, and this is why some older people die in their sleep. Especially who have heart problems. Scary, huh?

When you dream, you toss and turn. If not, there is one sure way to tell if you're dreaming. It is by REM. REM is short for Rapid Eye Movement. Your eyes may be still closed, but your eyeballs moves around rapidly when you sleep. And if you snore, you're not dreaming. I don't know how they come up with 'if you snore, then you can't be dreaming' theory but let's just leave it at that or else this post is going to end up being a 2000 words essay.

Okay. I always ALWAYS have recurring dreams about toilets, amusement park, zombies, having sexual intercourse (NC-17) and anime characters. Let's see why. Maybe you have the same dreams as I do, so let's explore. Though these interpretions may not be very accurate but at least it gives us some clues.

Toilet

To see a toilet in your dream, symbolizes a release of emotions or getting rid of something in your life that is useless. The dream may also be brought about by your full bladder and is attempting to get you up and go to the bathroom. If you are cleaning the toilet, then it means that you are starting to shed your shell or lose your inhibitions.


Okay. I always dream about toilets. But I don't use them, half the time I'm just there and I don't really know why I am. There is one or two times when yes, my bladder is full and I forgot to go to the toilet before I sleep and I woke up just in time to rush into it, luckily. If not, I could've wetten my bed. And that'll be completely mortifying seeing as I'm already 17. The rest just don't make sense to me. Releasing emotions? I have very little emotions to start with. Not that I'm emotionless or something. It's just that, I feel very little for things.


One because I've never been in love before, with a real guy I mean. So there's nothing there. Unless you count that I'm irrevocably in love with Uchiha Itachi, who just died in the manga. Second, I used to hate my bros and sis. But now, I don't know. I feel tired of hating so... They're just annoying to me. Aren't all siblings like that? I just don't feel anything towards them. Honest. You could say that, c'mon, I've live under the same roof with them my whole life, at least a little siblings love? But, none of that kind of emotion is in me.


Of course, if they were to be in danger, I would save them. As a role of an elder sister. Can't say it was out of love though. I just can't seem to grasp that feeling no matter how hard I try to.


Okay, fine. Maybe, I'm just a little bit unfeeling. My only passion goes to Art, Gory stuff and techologies. I don't like feeling sad so I don't try to. I get angry but it fades away fast like it comes.



Amusement Park

To see or be in an amusement park in your dream, indicates that you need to set some time for leisure and more enjoyment in your life. Consider how everything in the park is an expression of some aspect of yourself.? Alternatively, you may be too easily distracted lately.

Most amusement parks in my dreams are overly crowded, which makes it hard to maneuver around but I always seems to be pulled by someone, or something to take a ride or play a stall game. And I always can't remember who that is or what that was.

And in most of my a.park dreams, they have weird extreme rides with no seat belts or any buckles whatsoever. So you just need to hold on tight or else you will fall off or fly about two miles away. Like a roller coaster that has a trail that ended halfway in the air, a ride that turns 360degrees and leaves you grabbing only a pole while it flings you around. Or a merry-go-round/ carousel that doesn't wait for its passengers to get seaten and turns ways too fast, when all the people flew of and you can hear bones cracking and people screaming while still holding on trying not to puke because of the dizziness.

It said, everything in the park is an expression of some aspect of myself. I think I can relate to that somehow. NOT. It's crowd is too much. I hate crowds. The place is filthy, I hate filthy places. It's crampy, and I don't like to get wedged up between people. The only thing that could most probably resemble to me is the zombies. Yes, the crowd was no god damn human beings. They're all zombies, and I'm playing with them. In a haunted house, the zombies are getting scared by human beings. In stalls, zombie are trying to dunk that poor guy all tied and gagged sitting obove a pool of water (which the zombie tried and tried to dunk but failed and his arm fell into the water instead). Maybe, after school and everything... away from friends and classmates... I sort of died a little inside. Like a zombie. Completely lifeless inside.

Argh! Makes me want to go to Japan ASAP.

/omg

The dreaded dream to tell. Sexual intercourse. You can think this is mortifying but actually I know it as a fact that both girls and boys have these wet dreams when they reaches puberty. But still, having it as a recurring dream... Well, I don't have it as much as I have dreams about a.park and zombies and toilets but it's, you know disturbing.

I just woke up one day feeling totally aroused and don't know what to do with it. It goes away soon though because I felt tired all of sudden and plop back to sleep. Dreamless.

Interpretion NUMBER ONE:

To dream about sex, may be your libido's way of telling you that it's been too long since you have had sex. It may indicate repressed sexual desires and your needs for physical and emotional love. To see your parents having sex in your dream, indicates that you are seeing similar aspects between their relationship and your current relationship. Most of us cringe at the thought of our parents having sex, so this dream imagery is really trying to get your attention. Consider your parents' real life relationship together and what you can learn from it.

I'm underaged! WTF. But anyways... Me? Crave for sex? Not yet. I get pervert-ish thoughts once in a while but it never really arouses me enough to feel like doing it. I was too easily distracted anyways. One moment, I might be thinking about it, the other moment I was too busy imagining Freddy Krueger chopping off my bros head for being an idiot of the higher level. Maybe it was my parents? Never heard or notice anything that they are doing it. Yeah, that's it. It's maybe them. NOT FAIR! How is their SEX problem MY problem?! Ugh! It's not like I'm stopping them from doing it or whatever...

Interpretion NUMBER TWO:

To dream about sex with someone other than your spouse or significant other, suggests dissatisfaction with the physical side of your relationship. On the other hand, it may be harmless fantasy. In such situations, you may find that you are less inhibited sexually and you can even bring that sense of adventure to your existing relationship. If you dream you are having sex with a celebrity, then it indicates your drive to be successful. Consider what movies your associate this celebrity with for clues as to where and what you want to achieve success in.

I never dreamt that I was doing it with a celebrity. Because there is just none that would drive me enough to fantasize about doing it with them. I mean, Jason Statham and Keanu Reeve is hot but just... I can't imagine it. I seldom fantasize about those stuff. The wet dreams I have... Sometimes I don't even know who the guy is, sometimes he was an anime character, which I have no idea why because I don't fantasize about them as much as I fantasize about gut-spilling movies. And of course, I still wake up sweating like hell. Very disturbing dreams. And I can't even feel ANYTHING because it's a dream. Can only remember the touches and nothing else.

Interpretion NUMBER THREE: (there is more?! /shock)

To dream that you are having sex with an ex or something that is not your current mate, denotes your reservations about embarking in a new relationship or situation. You may feel nervous about exposing yourself or currently feel a resurgence of those old emotions and feelings that you felt back when you and your ex were together.?Believe it or not, it is not uncommon for people approaching their wedding to experience especially erotic adventures with partners other than their intended spouses. This may be due to the intensity of your sexual passion with your fiance It also relates to the new roles that you will be taking on and the uncertainty that that may bring.

.... Completely irrelevant to the ones I have. SKIP.

Interpretion NUMBER FOUR: v> this is counted as well...

To dream that you are homosexual (but you are not in your waking life), represents a union with aspects of yourself. It is symbolic of self-love, self-acceptance, and compassion. If, in your dream, you are not comfortable with homosexuality, then it suggests some fears/anxieties about your masculinity (if you are male) and femininity (if you are female).You may be experiencing some insecurity in your relations with the opposite sex.


Yes. I did dream about me doing it with another girl. But the thing is, when i was doing it with another girl, I realize that it was not my body. But another person's body. And he's a guy. And somehow in that dream, that guy's body is very aroused. But I seem to be doing his job, entertaining that girl I don't even know. /blur

So, anyway... Of course I don't feel comfortable. I'm perfectly straight and no sexual affection has been felt towards females. If it meant insecurity towards opposite sex in reality... I really don't know if I should post this... I do feel insecure and a little paranoia about bathing after somebody peeped at me bathing and that somebody I suspected to be my own brother. That's why I chose to either bath very early in the morning or very late at night. Because at the time I was bathing, I thought it was weird. Why was the door keep moving? I opened just a little in a swift sudden movement and saw a figure who looks so much like my freakin brothers outside running away from the bathroom. If he wasn't peeping, why would he run away? Then only I realized there is like this big about 2cm wide hole at the door. I got mad, what else. I stuck the bubblegum i was chewing at that hole.

I guess one of my bro, I don't know which one since I only got his back (I have twins bros) got scared and got caught red-handed (or in this case, red-eyed), the hole never reopened. But I'm still paranoia about it. This habit of bathing still continues till now. But if I catch them doing it again, they're going to be missing some vital male organs.

Phew. That was long. Hope it's not 2000 words.

/bye for now






4 comments:

  1. That IS long. But i manage. Hvnt been reading for a long while. N ah.. I couldnt read the first half cuz... uh. The font is extremely small and it did juz kill me to read it. Where did u get all these?? Its not relli helpful for me buz i nvr dream this kinda thing before. -__-

    U knw what? Go publish ur blog lerr. Tell others that u hv a blog too. If not u did be juz seeing me in this blog... Forever!

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  2. Lazy... Small? It's pretty big for me. Maybe it's the settings on your comp. I know you never have those dreams before. It did be weird if even our dreams are the same.

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  3. Hey, whats wrong with hving the same dream? It might happened. One day. Lolx.

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  4. same dream may mean somethin... this post is just too long... i didn't bother to read it.. sheesh... ur a little open in blog arrr... this goes out world wide... o wells...

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