Holiday Boredom

Ugh. There's like, 2 more weeks of holidays for my younger siblings. Lucky them. While all they have to do is wait for school to reopen, I have to struggle to look for a job during the holidays and also finish the procedures of my going to Japan and study.


The paperworks are simply a headache itself. Other than that, I've just been sitting at home doing nothing. Painting if I found something to paint and reading most of the times. I'm getting sick of staying at home and so wanted to go out and hang around my peeps.


Only thing is that, they're not always free and I don't want to trouble my mum so much by asking her to drive me back and forth the shopping malls. I so wanted to learn how to drive, but the thought makes me nervous. I'm procrastinating but what the hell...

I guess I'll post a painting I randomly did today.



Sometimes, I'll go online and watch Naruto Shippuden but they're not really going that any faster. The part where Asuma died, just get over it. And I don't really like the way the manga is heading either. It seems like Pein is getting the advantages. It's like everything is coming to an end. But then again, we all know there's probably still a long way to go.

Well, we don't really know who exactly Pein is, what exactly is Zetsu's abilities other than merging with nature and some other minor tributes... Even though I seriously wanted to see Danzo and the Konoha's two old people (forgot their names) get their heads ripped off by Sasuke but I really wanted to kick his ass for wanting to destroy Konoha as well.

I just recently went and check online the Akatsuki's profile and heck, Deidara's got the same birthday as Charlie which is the 5th of May. He was damn proud of it and started following Deidara's way of talking by adding the 'un' prefix.

Well, I really don't have a specific subject for this post but just because Fishie posted something about Sagittarians and I recently had the same topic with my mum just yesterday.

SAGITTARIANS

> possess a natural exuberance, sense of adventure and love of life that makes them one of the most optimistic zodiac signs of all.

I'd like to rebuke Fishie for this point. She mentioned in her http://fishiebubble.blogspot.com/ blog, that most sagittarians she knew are definitely not optimistic. Which of course, one of them being me. True, I'm not the most optimistic person in the whole wide world. But I AM optimistic. I don't like to see the bad side of things, that would made my way of thinking narrow and close up the possibilities of any solutions that I can come up with in a dire situation.

Being optimistic is thinking positively. My dictionary had defined an optimist to think that a glass of water is half-full rather than half-empty. I don't blame Fishie for saying I'm not optimistic, many people thinks I'm a pessimist. But what I think is, my way of thinking positively is thinking something that will benefit me in some situations.

For some people, watching the heroine about to get killed in a movie is like a taboo to them. While they are fairly being convinced that she will not die, I don't know, maybe they think that the director can't kill off his main character, I would think that she would. And this is how people come up with me being a pessimist. But I am just merely being an optimist because if she dies, I get to see the gore of her dying. Which is good for me. It pleasures me to no end. Not that I hate her or anything but I wouldn't let an apportunity to see gory stuff just go past me.

So what, I'm trying to say is. I am being an optimist. But only for myself. I know that's purely selfish. But if you're me, if you feel what I feel while watching horror movies, if you have the same fetish as I do, I'm sure you would've think the same way I do. Sadly enough, I know and acknowledge the fact that very little people think the same way I do. Might as well grow up a freak. Not that I minded.

> renowned for aiming their sights towards whatever it is they find alluring: a love partner, dream job, vacation - and making it their own.

True. For me, at least. Though I doubt I will try too hard to get a love partner since I still have no interests in dating, yet. I'm currently chasing after my dream job. If I want to make a vacation fun and extreme, I will do my best to alter it. All I have to do is to envision it. After that, I'll thrive on that vision, aiming to reach the ideal image. And nothing can stop me from doing it.

> Believe that anything is possible.

Well, thanks to my wild imaginations. I do want to believe the existence of the supernaturals: ghosts, etc. But I can't, until I experience it. Other than that, I try to believe anything is possible, but keep tabs of the reality as well.

> Sagittarians are hard to tie down, they are happiest on the move - exploring new cultures and ideas.

I must agree with this. I hate to be limited in things that I do. I like to let my imaginations go as far as they can when creating art pieces, and I use up to a variety of materials too which is doing no good to my pocket money... ah well. /nobigdeal

I like exploring new cultures. I'm too curious for my own good. I have to know what everything is if it attracted my attention. Like Japan. I have explored its culture, not all, but most of them. Good and bad ones - well, a country can't be perfect in all ways but at least Japan is better than my own country in many ways.

> Attracted to occupations realated to travel, meadia, outdoor work and philosophical pursuits.

If my intentions of going to Japan and study is not clear enough to prove this point, I don't know what will.

> Intelectually and spiritually advanced.

Really? I had no idea. I don't know if it applies to me because I can be such a block head at times.

> Notorious for their lack of tact

I probably have many enemies because of my tactlessness. But all my friends seems to be ignorant enough to notice it and took no heed of my all-out honest criticism. But really, I admit this is true. Sometimes I just speak without thinking, not realizing that the TRUTH might hurt someone's feelings.

Sorry for those who had to suffer my lack of sensitivity.

> In love, their catch cry is "don't fence me in". But once they find a partner who understands their need to retain their own sense of self and identity, Sagittarians can be the most big-hearted, generous and fun-loving companions of all.

Maybe that's why I don't like to be in a relationship. I have problems of being committed in love. If I had a boyfriend, he would have to understand that I have to spend some times with my friends too, he would have to understand that sometimes I wanted to be left alone especially when I need to think.

I trust very little people or none at all. All I know is that I don't trust someone fully. Call me paranoid, whatever. But its a habit of being cautious. About this point, sometimes being in a relationship can be rather difficult. The guy must be innovative enough to keep me busy, because I get bored really fast. And I don't like to stay in one place for long. And he would have to give me a little space and not get jealous over why I spend much more time on my friends than him.

You might think only the guy is doing everything while I sit back and enjoy, then you're wrong. If the guy keeps me sated by being what I want him to be such as giving me freedom, honest, loving, fun... etc. I will repay back by making things fun for him as well. Once I feel happy, I will try to make people around me happy especially the 'him' who made me happy in the first place.

I'm not saying that I'm a very sanguine person though. Well, until I find the love of my life, I'll just be myself. Not that I mind. I still have a lot more things to explore!